Introduction.

I've always loved music. Who doesn't? But to be able to write and perform is something else entirely. Now, with computers and software that's free, anyone can do it. Why not have a go? Sure, there's a learning curve ... but I can't think of much that's more fun ... and fun is what life's all about!

I took piano for a term at school before deciding it wasn't for me. Then my circle of friends decided to start a band, and the only 'vacancy' was for a drummer: had we bothered gigging it might have been more fun.

Then I persuaded my dad to lend me the money to set up a rehearsal room. A to B ... B to C. Finally, the manager of an up and coming punk/new wave band booked my place for a fortnight, and I met 'M' the cute, blonde, spikey haired singer :) .

Hmm. *looks off into the distance, a smile on his face* So ... I was living in London in what was really a squat. Then one day, not long after I met him, 'M' turned up and moved in. Shortly thereafter a music journalist moved into the top floor: unfortunately, along with being a respected - though poorly paid - journalist, he was also a dealer. A lovely guy, but bad news for those with little brain.

'M's' band went from record deal to record deal and finally, I became their drummer. We went to LA, back to London and six months after finding out what the journalist dealt ... sank.

Germany and a new start. We built a sixteen track studio and started producing German bands. I taught myself to play keys and guitar, and write and record ... but we had a rotten manager and a year later we ran away - literally - back to london.

I started writing crappy music for crappy corporate videos, and 'M' started writing better music for video and film.

So that's me. The tracks here are demos - ideas without finished production. Some are better than others, but all are from the heart. *coughs* There is no corporate music here at all: you should thank your lucky stars!

I'll be adding to this deposit/repository/selection/virtual tome on a regular basis. There are a lot more where these came from. So, if you like any of them, then check back for more. I'm sure, as with the poetry, your therapist will come to a multi session arrangement with you! ;)

Finally: I hope you enjoy my 'stuff'. Either way, I'd like it muchly if you'd brave the horror to email me. Love it, hate it, at least I'd know. Thanks, you're the best!

Camy x

PS. If you click on the square flowery graphic beneath each song it'll bring you back to the top, and the menu.


 

 

Ancient
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It's not that I'm old
It's not who I am
I'm who I was brought up to be
It's not that I don't care
I probably care too much
It's all the hate and misery

It makes me feel
It makes me feel ancient

We won't be around for ever
In the scheme of things we're dust
The beauty that we have surrounds us
But the most important thing is love

It's not what you want
It's not what you own
It's the attitude you have that counts
It's not where you go
It's not the destination
It's the journey that matters the most

It makes me feel
It makes me feel ancient

We won't be around for ever
In the scheme of things we're dust
The beauty that we have surrounds us
But the most important thing is love

Broken Heart
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Tim offered me the chance to turn Codey's lyrics into a song. He said Codey saw it as a 'Country and Western tear jerker' with an 'Elton John feel'. Unforunately, I don't do country and western: and I'm certainly no Elton John ... sweetie ;)

It took a while, but I think, I hope, Codey would have liked it. I'm really looking forward to playing it live. 'M' helped me an awful lot. He played the keys - both piano and organ, and programmed the original drums.

we swore to love forever
and we meant it at the time
we'd always be together
with a future so sublime
but now you've found another
and I've been left with this sad song
I walk alone in darkness
and I'm wondering what went wrong

Now the moon and stars are hiding
they don't want to see my tears
and the lovers all are crying
for the pain that I feel
and when I now look upward
there's no heaven in sight
my heaven has turned to hell
and my happieness taken flight

Chorus:
if there were no stars, there'd be no heaven
if there were no moon, there'd be no lovers
If there were no lovers, there'd be no broken hearts
Now since there is no you, there is no me

will the sun come out tomorrow
and drive these shadows from my mind
will it heal this broken heart
with the warmth it leaves behind
will it ease this pain within me
by the ending of the day
or is this pain I feel
forever going to stay

Chorus:

I know that given time,
this broken heart will mend
but even given time,
these painful memories won't end
but fade into mere whispers
in the background of my mind
forever there to wander
with the dreams I've left behind

Chorus:

Courage
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I've watched you from afar for a long, long time
Laughing, joking, smiling with our friends
And I fell; fell in love with you
The way you are, the who you are
But you will never know

I see you everyday and it tears me apart
That I love you so and you don't know
But it's better this way

'cause you might say no and tear my heart apart
You might say no and leave me in the dark
You might say no and my life would surely end
But I don't have the courage

Though I know you are a true, true friend
There's a part of me so terrified
you'll reject what you see
And I couldn't bear the pain
if you walked away
So I won't tell and you won't know
And it's better this way

'cause you might say no and tear my heart apart
You might say no and leave me in the dark
You might say no and my life would surely end
But I must find the courage

God Will Give You Blood To Drink
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Spoken:
Dearly beloved
We are gathered here today to praise the lord
The lord our god in heaven above
The lord our god in heaven above, whose son we slowly and painfully crucified
The lord our god who means so much to us in our lives today
Praise be to god.

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You think I care but in truth I don't give a damn
You took my Son and with hammer and nails killed the man
Yet here we are two thousand years down the line
You still revere me, still think I'm divine

And yet you took him to Golgotha Hill
Destroyed my son the one who loved you still
How could you think, how could you think I would ever forgive you?
This God will give you blood to drink

I know I'm late but where I live transport is shite
But now I'm here I'm going to put it all right
I've started small, a tsunami to stir up the pot
The second course, a pandemic should just hit the spot!

And yet you took him to Golgotha Hill
Destroyed my son the one who loved you still
How could you think, how could you think I would ever forgive you?
This God will give you blood to drink